Salmon

One day, my mom bought a huge salmon cause she said it was on sale. I'm used to seeing these kind of cooking process, but not really at home... I mean a fish like ｓalmon was kind of surprising to me cause it's pretty big, you know? Anyways, when I decided to take a photo of this moment and looked at the salmon with the viewfinder, it seemed like the salmon was afraid of the upcoming moment (even though the salmon was already dead).

We eat, we live. Made me think a little bit. But I'm going to be honest, the salmon was good.

Sunny day at my neighborhood

Looks exotic, but that's just because our neighbor have ivy and some unknown plants cover their wall.

bloom

Past scribbles

Old scribbles from my old note book.

I don't really like to use the word "I'm OK" cause it's like telling everyone I'm not actually OK, but I'm slowly trying to move forward.

I ran 11km today. I can be proud of myself, right? I know myself very well, but I am not a marathon person, I'm more like a basket ball person cause I hate the feeling of getting tired gradually. I just want to be like, BAM I'M SO EXHAUSTED... take a rest... let's try that one moret time, and get tired again. Basically I have no patience to just move forward to reach the goal. I somehow have to stop at one point and defend myself or just do nothing, and suddenly if I feel the urge to move forward I run as fast as I can even if I can't find the right goal, just keep moving.

I talked to my friend in Senegal today. She said when people ask you how you're doing, there's one word to explain when there's nothing going on, they say "It's peaceful". Beautiful. Love it.

Sometimes when things happen so quickly, you try not to digest what has happened, and try to move on like you pretend nothing has happened.

Same thing, if you know when something happens that you know will happen, you try to close your eyes, and pretend it didn't happen... but you also pretend that you're ok, and try your best to move on.

My dog, Minnie, died last Tuesday. I knew it was coming, and I was right beside her when she went to heaven.

Everytime, I wake up and go downstairs, I used to check if she ate breakfast.
When I come back home, I used to wait for her to welcome me.
I used to listen to her moving in midnight, and woke up for her to pat her on the head that everything is ok.

Everything seemed like my everyday life, but when she's gone I miss her and all these small things I used to do.

As for now, I'd like to pretend that I'm ok.

I will be ok.

Seasons changing

Back to blogger!

Phew, I have been lazy these days. Whenever I get back from work, it's about 9PM and then I have my dinner, so by the time I finish eating I get mad sleepy. I feel like getting ready to hibernate... Anyways, hopefully I will have my energy back and start drawing again.

Speaking of energy, I will start yoga from tomorrow! I've never done it before, but I thought it will be the best timing to start now, since there's a new open fitness studio nearby my station. I gotta enhance my metabolism :)

Will give some updates on that as well as my drawing!

Deep deep down

break

Can't draw when i'm emotionally exhausted. I feel like I'm in middle of no where, walking around not knowing where to go. I guess I'm in the down stage, but hope something will be solved soon. Soon!

Monday

I drew this in pen and realized i didn't like her nose very much, so instead of scribbling over it, I just decided to cut it :p Still working on one drawing per day.

I went to Tommy Guerrero's concert yesterday, and I didn't know him too well, but I really liked his music! So good!... but today is Monday and honestly it isn't really my day, but starts are always a drag if you know what i mean.

A Gaze

Today was just another day, but luckily I had company to enjoy coffee after work.

While sitting down outside, a french bull dog was just going to pass us by, but stopped and gazed for few seconds until her owner pulled to make her move. I have no idea what this dog was looking at, but seemed pretty happy to see all the attention she got from the customers in Starbucks.

Trying to focus on something I have to work on, but I don't want to rush either. Maybe I should just stop and look around before I make any mistakes. Although, no one will pull me to realize I'm going the wrong direction. Oh well :)

Autumn

Autumn has already arrived. I prefer cold seasons better than summer, because I got used to the winter in Chicago. Maybe if I go back, I may regret what I said here, but I have lots and lots of good memories in winter.

I just loaded an AGFA film into my Nikon that I'm using, but I still have to work on 28 more pictures until I can have it printed! Maybe I should go explore some where, cause the home to work route has nothing exciting to shoot...

First Ever

My very first pictures I have taken recently with my Nikon.

Manual cameras may take a while to get the focus right, but looking at the scenery through the viewer makes you realize where you are standing.

These pictures were taken at Inokashira park in Kichijoji, one of my favorite places here in Tokyo.

Surely but Slowly

I guess I meant slowly but surely :) Too darn lazy to change the title name.

Slacker...

I forgot (procrastinated) to update my blog ahhh,
but I turned 25 during the two months. yey!

My 25th birthday started with a surprise party on the 4th,
and the actual birth"day" concluded with a "Happy Birthday Mr. President" song by Ms. Marilyn Monroe at a Italian-American restaurant near the river.
Now..., I was so not ready for her (Marilyn) when the whole restaurant was filled with her sexy vocal, but I felt like I'm not just aging a year, but I must accept the fact that I'm a woman now and not a girl anymore (whatever that is).
Anyways, I really enjoyed this year's birthday. Thank you everyone!

So...

I've been planning to take a trip to this place called Yufuin for a long long time, because I heard the hot springs and the sceneries are beautiful, and i'm finally going tomorrow :)
3 nights! Can't wait!!

I will update some pictures/ drawings when I come back.

Yum

I miss good cookies... chewy, extremely sweet, and big big cookies.

I hardly find cookies like this in Japan.

I've never imagined I will be missing any food from US, but honestly I do.

Food in Chicago made my stomach ache so many times as I recall, but I miss

*Potbelly's sandwich...

*Buritos from Chipotle(although it's not American food I used to eat it you know...)

*Cupcakes covered with lots and lots of icings

*Pizza (I prefered NY style better... damn deep dish)

*Chillies

*Buffalo wings

and many more... sigh

new look

Surprise!

I changed the blog drastically today cause I got tired of the old design.
I think this blue suits better :)

Anyways, lately I've been thinking of creating a children's book...
(maybe because I have so many babies around me?)
I have some ideas in my mind, but nothing is set at the moment.

Will update pictures soon.

I just hope so

Yesterday I finally saw "Marley and Me" with Juri and Take. I cried too much, my eyes got swollen, I almost got hyperpnea, but I was able to see the whole film :)

Then I met Take's parents later in the afternoon to have dinner with them, but Take had to go his teacher's gallery (who he taught him when Take was in junior high School). Anyways, my boyfriend was late and I had to wait with his parents for 2 hours.

I dunno... his mom started talking about marriage and how they can support financially, but man, that was awkward. Awkward in a sense I wasn't expecting his mom to be so serious on this subject. But come and think of it, who wouldn't care about his/her child's marriage, I guess everyone will. Maybe I will someday.

When time comes,
when chances come,
whenever we understand what a good timing is,
i'm pretty sure we'll be able to handle stuff properly.

And, then he got a call from his co-worker and asked him to work from 3AM. I got upset and everything, not just because I was going to be lonely, but all these hard work that he has to go through and so little of support I can give him. Oh well, so my eyes got even swallen from Marly and Take yesterday, a dog and a husband can really change my life someday, i hope in a good way.

I just hope so..

My ignorance

I think my brother's wife is having a baby soon, I mean SOON! Sometimes today or tomorrow...

I wonder what his name will be... By the way it's a boy :)

Lately, I realized something important, something I should of understood way back, but here I go...

I never understood how to treat babies, so I kind of thought to myself deep deep inside, maybe it's like taking care of dogs. On the other hand, on top of my head I was pretty confident that I knew what it was all about.

So anyway, I went to my friend's house to see her lovely lovely 2 months old baby. He was so cute, and helpless, he was alway crying for his mom. And, after a while I had a chance to hold him, but he started crying a lot begging for his mom! I didn't know what to do, and so for some reason I panicked and I started petting him (like I do to my dog when she cries..). I also kept on comparing him to my dog, Minnie (Cause my dog also has diapers on). I knew I was totally wrong, but somehow that was the only way I could think of when I wanted to make him feel better.

And, so 2 months has past by and I met my friend again last week with her baby. And guess what! You will have no idea how he has grown so big in just 2 months!! Also, what really surprised me was I think he remembered me, and smiled when I was talking to him. He let me hold him too :) I swear this is going to be my last time to compare babies with dogs, but I noticed dogs are different. BIG TIME! Now, I'm really excited to see my friend's baby grow, and can't wait for him to start talking to me!

I think everyone will make fun of me for comparing babies and dogs ... but I really have to think of responsibilities when I'm going to have babies in the future. I'm in the middle of reading "Marley & Me" , so that's why I couldn't help myself talking about this subject... stupid stupid me

An unfinished piece

Just to remind myself that I did study animation... I was never able to finish this and probably won't be able to, but it's something I shouldn't forget. Time flies.

If my dog was a character

Name: Minnie

Age: 17 years old (85 years old in human age)

Character: Minnie was born in England. Her bark has some british accent, most of her neighbor dogs have hard time understanding her. She also got her teeth fallen out lately, she has hard time chewing and barking. This is her 13th year in Tokyo. She got a sweater last year for Christmas from her owner but doesn't seem to like it at all. She hates the color and the design, but she knows it's best to keep her warm. Her diapers keep her butt warm too, but really, it's easier to do her business in there. She usually likes to sit and go over her 17 years of memory and likes to fall asleep. She can hardly see or hear, but Minnie can understand what humans want cause of her 17 years of experience...

so random

I must say, I lied already and forgot to update my pictures.

SO, as a general rule, I am going to update when I feel like to. I only accept pressure only when I have to but let's just make this an easy going blog :p Anyways, I just wanted to pretend that i'm a modern artist (whatever hell that is).

-Have you ever had an experience when you encounter a piece of art and find yourself lost with what that art work really means??

I DO!!!!

Sometimes... I envy their creativity and originality, but I prefer the way somehow people understand what i'm trying to say when i make something.

Glad to find my blog, i thought i lost it.

So, here I am after abandoning my blog for almost 2 years, I'm finally going to update my stuff. It's really werid to post my pictures, cause i never had confidence or guts to do it, but this time I'm just not gonna even care. These days, I feel like I lost my creativity and even my passion towards drawing or anything. So... instead of making myself draw like i used to when i was in college (or maybe that was the whole reason why i got tired of drawing) i'm just going to try post random drawings when i have time. Just like today, I drew this in 10 mintues, boila! Notice, I (the girl with the blue hat) am kind of leaning towards the left... gotta practice!